By Carl Sandburg
The fog comes
on little cat feet.
It sits looking
over harbor and city
on silent haunches
and then moves on.
Engaging in our spiritual work gives us a sense of comfort and security. We think, if I align myself with my higher self I think about being the love that I am and want to see in the world, then I will avoid the pain and suffering in life. If I make every effort to act in accordance with the love I am, life will be smooth sailing. Well, sometimes that’s true, but then life happens ….
And no matter what we do, sometimes the fog of depression comes in. If you haven’t felt that fog approaching and then enveloping you, it’s hard to explain. If you have felt it, you know what I’m talking about. It doesn’t always arrive on little cat feet, sometimes it swipes at us and we are blindsided. And while it does eventually move on, we don’t know when that will be.
We often don’t know what brings on depression. Sometimes we are depressed because we are depressing something that we are feeling or something we need to hear. Sometimes we are depressing a question to which we don’t want to hear the answer. Or we are attached to the answer being a certain something…and now we are suffering. Or we are fearful, or anxious or worried, and we’re not sure why. We may even be willing to be curious and open up our energy and say, I need help, I receive it, I am willing to hear the answer no matter what it is. And still feel that fog and have no idea why….and we don’t always need to know why, or we may never know why. And that’s OK too.
We may try everything: exercise, breathing, meditation, healthy food, praying, focusing on connecting with our higher self, taking loving care of ourself in every way possible, talking with those we love. However, these are not vaccines to keep us immune from fear, anxiety, depression, worry. The panacea is often a holistic approach, a combination of many things. We need to be willing to do everything necessary. Including acknowledging and honoring that we in human form, in a body. And sometimes the body needs medicine, just like the mind might need therapy, or meditation.
Just like one thing alone doesn’t usually cause our depression or disease or whatever we’re dealing with, there is often a plethora of remedies we need to employ. The cumulative effect of life’s experiences and stresses can bring something on over time, and we often need a tapestry of solutions. We heal, bit by bit.
When I was younger, the waves of depression would slam into me without warning and might take months to lift. Now I am more aware of the signs and signals that feel like auras, like before a migraine. It’s always a call to be kinder and more compassionate to myself, as soon as I notice the disruption to my energy flow. It is easier to respond sooner, and the heavy energy moves more quickly and easily.
The little cat feet pad away. And once I again, I feel my true, loving Self. She was there all along.